Baby Blog

I can’t believe how tired I am with this pregnancy. I know I’m older but still, four and a half months in and I’m sleeping twelve hours a night. Its crazy. Its also getting harder and harder to indulge my darling two year old. Nik doesn’t really understand what’s happening only that someone is growing inside mommy’s tummy. He doesn’t understand the side effects of pregnancy.

Nik is no lightweight these days and picking him up, putting him in the car, lifting him in and out of the buggy is no joke. I have made a few muscles twinge already and I know I’m probably days away from saying no more. Nik doesn’t understand that. He thinks he’s being pushed aside. I’ve tried explaining that he is heavy and mommy is getting more and more fragile but of course, he just wants mommy to be the way mommy always is.

Disciplining Nik has become such a chore. I think I’m at a stage that all I can think is I have to get Nik sorted out quickly before there are two children to deal with. I love my son but just like his mother, he’s stubborn, impatient and doesn’t like being told what to do. You can imagine how much work it is to get Nik’s behavior under control when I’m tired and impatient myself. We’re certainly struggling.

I think the best thing I can do (and older wiser moms please tell me if I’m wrong) is really concentrate on some quality time with my little guy before we aren’t a double act anymore. I love my son and I never wanted to have to split my attention but the universe had another plan and I have to adapt. So its field trips, craft time, new activities (we are tumbling this afternoon) and basically any spare moment I can find for Nik and mommy time.

And I wonder why I am so tired.